Day 2

Oooh, hello deployment fairy!! It's so nice to see you again so soon!! So, last night - my washer broke. It had a burning smell and wouldn't wash clothes. So I submitted a maintenance request to have someone come fix it from our apartment complex. I had a horrible time falling asleep, but finally, I passed out. I woke up with some bad pains in my stomach and GUESS WHAT, nearly a month ago, I had went to the ER (a visit from the "underway fairy") the day after my husband was sent out to sea for a few days and found out I had kidney stones. Well, after a week, pain went away. So I figured the stones had passed. But nooo, they waited til 6:30am to rear their ugly heads! Sorry to be so blunt, but I was stuck on the toilet for about 2 hours cause everytime I left it, the urge to pee came back and I was terribly uncomforatable. I took all my medicines that had been given to me for the kidney stones, including a vicodin for the IMMENSE pain. Finally, they passed and as fast as the pain came, it left. I passed back out around 9am until maintenance showed up at 10am. They fixed my washer. I fell back asleep (Vicodin will do that to ya) and woke up off and on until about 1:30, 2. So, lets keep count here - Deployment fairy has visited 1.) Molly pottying on the car seat 2.) Washer breaking 3.) Kidney stones. That's 3-0! Here's what I've decided is my new battle strategy. When I start working out (Supposed to start today but that's now not happening!) each pound I lose will be my score. And by the end of deployment, hopefully I'll have won! Moving on though, to how I'm feeling today. I miss my husband. It's a little unreal that he's gone officially and the big scary deployment word has become a big scary adventure. I'm sitting at the starting line of a triple marathon wondering how the hell I am gonna accomplish this. But, I also know that I will. I will accomplish it, even if I walk the entire thing. I will make it, because there is NOTHING I want more in this world than to see my husband at the finish line. I'm lonely without him, but today for me is definitely better than yesterday was. Hopefully it'll stay that way. I'll write again later on tonight, but for now, I'm just drained from the meds I had to take this morning and the pain of the kidney stones might have been overpowering to today's deployment pain. I suppose we shall find this out tomorrow... Or maybe, I could be getting into the routine already. That would be... Fantastic. I'm just focusing on these goals I have, and it's making things a whole ton easier. Hopefully this post didn't bore you too much, I'll make up for it later. Hang in there everyone, because even on your weakest days, you get a little bit stronger. I miss you Patrick.