DAY TEN

Well, today was crazy. I lost it for the first time since we said goodbye. I began to cry, I felt horrible. The crying was honestly a physical pain. I wanted to talk to my husband, or have him comfort me and knowing that it'll be so long before he can do that again, caused me to panic. I just sobbed, for a long time. When I finally relaxed, I was angry that I had lost control. It was just horrible feeling so miserable. I've been keeping my chin up and keeping tough, so losing it was double crappy! But, again, I'm sorry but I've been waiting til late-late at night to write and I am exhausted. I'm about to grab a shower and do some cleaning - I'm having people over for dinner tomorrow and my parents will be visiting for the weekend. But lets just say, today I hit rock bottom... I just wanted to be with my husband and I wanted him to comfort me. But this is my time I suppose to comfort myself. I gotta keep tough and just keep keepin' on!!

Hey everyone, VOTE for the contest please and keep entering!!!

Thank you readers!

I just want to say thank you to all of you who read along and follow with my deployment journey! I have honestly LOVED the responses I've gotten on the page and in emails from those of you who are reading. They really keep me going and it's wonderful to know that there are people listening out there. So thank you, all of you! :)

PHOTO CONTEST ENTRIES

Hey ya'll, I'm posting the pictures that have been sent to me so far! Remember, you're still more than welcome to send me pictures (laurelbby@yahoo.com) for the contest until Sunday! Voting officially ENDS on Sunday!! To vote, post a comment with the name of the person you'd like to win and include any comments on it that you'd like! And yes, if you've entered a picture, you can vote for yourself (once) So only one vote each everyone!! Here's the pics:

AMY LOWMAN (HUSBAND STEPHEN)

SARAH LUSSIER (FIANCE JACOB WITH SON CAIDENCE)

WENDY STUMP

MICHELE DANGROW (WITH SON PATRICK)

START VOTING!!! And keep entering more pictures!!! :)

Day 9... Yes everyone, I know this post is late.

Well, I had a few visits today.... The Infamous Deployment Fairy,

And free pancakes at IHOP

First, I shall apologize for the fact that I'm writing at 5am on Day 10 technically, but I haven't went to sleep yet. And I also apologize for the fact that my writing might not be awesome... I'm exhausted. Well, anyways, yesterday, I realized my laundry room door was jammed. Some things had fallen down in there, and it wouldn't even open half an inch. I wasn't in the mood to deal with it, so I decided to wait until today to deal with it. Well, I figured that what was blocking the door was boxes, so I decided to just push until the boxes caved enough for me to get my arm through there. Well, I pushed and I pushed... And WHAM the handle of my vacuum went RIGHT THROUGH the door. So, now I realized, boxes were not the problem. And the worst part was, I STILL couldn't get the door open. It was still just as jammed. So, I submitted a maintenance request, sounding like a completely dummy. That'll be coming out of the security deposit! Awesome! So thank you Deployment fairy, FML. But, I will get you back.

Then, I went grocery shopping with some friends. It was nice to get out of the house and finally fill my fridge back up!! Not to mention, spend some time having a blast with friends. It definitely made me feel better. Then, I hung out with another military wife, made a new friend as well - yet another military wife, and we got some free pancakes at IHOP :) It was probably the first time I'd done anything like that since the summer after graduation. It was a blast. Then, basically hung out all night after until oh say, 3:10am. Lol.

It is great to speak with another military wife who's husband is deployed, I highly suggest it!! It's great to discuss your husbands and realize that you're both going through the same thing. Granted, it made me miss my hubby more than usual. I was forced to think of him strongly - which is good and bad. Emotion is not always bad, everyone. Even if it's negative emotion.

Also, got some motivation :) I'd like to take a boudoire photoshoot for my hubby!! So I am gonna use this to motivate me to get back into jogging, to get back into getting fit. Not to mention, I'm getting excited about homecoming dresses and outfits!! So, today, all in all, was a great day :)

It's extremely late, and I'm ready for bed!! Goodnight ya'll!

P.S. There is currently 2 entries for the photo contest... Come on everyone!!!!