Days 47 and 48 :D

Yesterday (Day 47) I spent with people from back home mostly. My father in law is a tour bus driver and he drove down here as the bus driver for the high school I lived near back home. They had a band field trip basically. It included my husband's 2 cousins and one of my best friends from when I lived back home! Seeing everyone made me miss my husband even MORE but it also made me feel very comforted. Then, today, (Day 48) I got my first tattoo!! Not everyone knows the story, nor is it important that they do, but my husband and I suffered a miscarriage a few months ago, so I got a tattoo representing the baby. Then my friend and her boyfriend made me supper, Mmmm.. Then, I went to visit my other friend who is a wife from the same boat at her work, Wendys. Lol. It was ALOT of fun that I definitely needed!! Now I am settled in doing some math homework, relaxing. Ahh... This week is almost over ya'll! :D

Days 45 and 46!

For Day 45, I spent it with my ladies!! We had a wonderful time!! Hanging around the house, heading to the mall, etc. Then, my friend who is a navy girlfriend was looking to go see her boy who was on duty, so my friend and I who are both navy wives escorted her onto base to see him :) He is on a surface ship, so it was SO much different than being on a submarine or visiting a submarine. From the top of the boat, I looked down and saw a guy on watch. He was standing the watch that was most common for my husband to stand when I would visit him at the boat. I started tearing up, then began crying. My other friend who's a navy wife (her hubby is on the same boat) fought the tears during our visit as well!! But then we cheered ourselves up by messing with an ex boyfriend of a friend who cheated on her! It was honestly the funnest stuff I've done in a long time!! For Day 46, I again spent it with my ladies!! Then, I found a ROACH!!!! I was just sittin' here by myself ya know? The husband not here to squash it!! So, guess who came to my rescue? These girls. They came as soon as they could, helped me clean and pull out my cupboards. We headed to walmart and got many, many things towards killing roaches. It makes me happy to know that there are other people who have my back and help me through my husband being gone :)

Day 44 :)

Today passed so quickly!! A friend and I caught a movie together and came back to my house to hang out. Besides that, I realized that I cannot afford to go overseas to see my husband at midway. It's so disappointing but its also a big stress reliever in a way. Now I can save that money and put it towards a vacation for the leave he gets after deployment so he can be away from work and away from everything. I sure do wish I could look forward to seeing him at the midpoint, but when you can't afford something... I guess you just can't :( But, I'm exhausted and heading to sleep ya'll! More tomorrow, I promise!

DAY 43

I'm so tired that I'm having a hard time remembering what I did today, lol. Well, I went to the commissary with a friend and we grocery shopped. I absolutely looove the prices and I saved soo much money versus going to walmart! Afterwards we unloaded the groceries (Having help carrying groceries up 3 floors was wonderful! Military wives can sub in as each others husbands :p) And then did some school work, which I still have MORE of. Ugh. I talked for quite a long time versus a good friend via computer, and now I'm finally heading to sleep!! Today feels ok. I had a bit of a breakdown earlier. Really missing him and wishing he was here to pull me through some hard times... But, just gotta keep being strong and being independant. Never ever give up! That's the way I've gotta keep thinking! :D Goodnight ya'll.

Day 42

Today I hung out with my friend Becca, another wife of a husband on my husband's boat! We avoided loneliness, discussed new art projects and whatnot :) It was fun! Then another friend who ritually comes over on Sunday nights to watch THE SHOWS - Army Wives and Coming Home joined us :) As well as her boyfriend - Also in the navy :) Tonight's shows weren't quite as heartbreaking as last weekend, but this still make us miss our men!! Not much else happened today. But life is becoming routine. I'm ok living. There's not a moment that passes that I don't think about him, but I'm doing alright. This has just become my life and this is how it is. I'm getting stronger every day! Remember that ladies, you can ALWAYS get stronger!!

Days 40 and 41 (My hubby's birthday!!)

Well here's how they've went.

Day 40 I didn't sleep the previous night. I laid down in bed around 1am and continued laying there until about 9am when I finally decided to get up and work out. I had an eye appointment, then did a little shopping with a friend. After that we headed to a party with another friend. It always cheers me up being around a large group of people who are in happy mindsets! Even if none of them are talking to me! This is the just of Day 40. Not too much happened besides spending time with friends.

Day 41 My husband's birthday!!!!! I wish so much I could have spent the day with him!!! He is officially 20 years old. This is the second year in a row I've been unable to spend his birthday with him due to him being out to sea :( But one thing I always remind myself, it'll make homecoming so much better. Because after I jump into his arms, and things settle down a bit for the day, we will have many many holidays to make up for! For his birthday, my friend and I went down to the beach. We laid a blanket out on the beach and relaxed for the day. It was about as close as I could get to my husband. When I put my toes in the water, I realized... In that moment, we're sharing the same ocean. The ocean surrounding him is the same ocean that my toes are in. I've finally reached the point where I feel as though I've got a schedule. I've got the ability to be independant, and with that comes a bit of worry and relief. I worry because I wonder what it'll be like for him to come home again. I wonder if I'll immediately grow dependant on him as I was before, and I always worry that I'll stay too independant and it will harm our relationship. Although, in the back of my head, I think to myself... When I see his face, it won't matter. I'll love him and hold him and we'll go back to normal eventually. I'm sure he's going through the same thing as me, just in different places. I am so anxious for the fall time of year to come so he can be back in our home, living everyday with me!

^^How I celebrated my hubby's birthday with him^^

^^ Celebrating my hubby's birthday via skype a few weeks ago ^^