Daaay 37!!

Ok so we're almost out of the 30's. Thank goodness!!! For some reason these days have been the worst. But anyways, today, I woke up, took some photography with my friend on base. We got some absolutely gorgeous shots and I realized that I LOVE living in a military area. I love the jets, I love the large boats, ships, everyone in uniform... I love it!! Then, I went home, did some school work, and another wife from my boat stopped by to abduct me so I didn't sit at home alone all night! We had supper at her place then headed over to the Cinema Cafe to watch "The Dilema." It was a ton of fun!! Jammed out in the car on the way home as well :) Got home, relaxed. Been texting a few friends, watching tv. Then, I got the urge to dance! Lol! I have been blasting party music and dancing around my apartment having a great time! Then... All the sudden... I saw a picture of my husband and I on our digital photo frame, and something hit me. It hit me so hard that it crushed me...

I miss him, 24/7, remain loyal to him, treasure him, love him, support him... But, I get on this fast paced path to getting a schedule and living everyday. I'm independant to the point where I can make myself happy while I'm sitting at home alone. I can dance around my living room and laugh and smile. I can survive. Then I stop for a second, everything slows down, and I remember his face perfectly. I remember the way his mouth moves. I remember his smiles. I remember us, and what it's like to be together and it's absolutely crushing. I just wish time would pass faster.

I'm going through a funk ya'll, a weird funk. Full of independance, schedules, stress, bipolar-ness, seclusion, loneliness and about anything else you can think of!

Top picture, my collection of photo booth pics! And below that, the newest addition! Gotta love us military wives! Last pic we were blowing our husbands kisses :D

Day 36

Not too much went down today. Basically just woke up, worked out for a few hours *which felt great I might add* and hung out with a friend. It felt really nice to be working out consistantly again! I wanna get back at my goal and start really kicking some serious butt in the weight loss category! So tomorrow I'll be doing some photography with a friend, working out and finishing school work :) Possibly even a taco night with another friend! Either way, I'm glad the days are passing. Hating this period of zero contact with my hubby. I wish I didn't have to sleep alone anymore and I wish I didn't have to miss him anymore. This truly is REALLY hard. Nowadays it isn't exactly strength keeping me going, but this schedule. It's keeping me afloat. I hope it keeps me going until he's home!! Really wish he was coming home soon though. Well ya'll, I almost forgot to blog tonight but I caught myself. My laptop is almost dead so I gotta wrap this up. I'm so ready to be out of the 30's. I really am! Don't ask me why but they are killin' me!! If anyone has anything they'd like me to blog about, let me know! I'm always up for suggestions. In fact, I encourage them! Hope ya'll sleep tight. Goodnight.