Day 13... Ready to get this day overwith at the moment

So, today was a mix of good and bad. Spent the day with my family and our dogs. We went to the beach and had a pretty good time! Then, my dad, brother and I got me an exercise bike from Walmart so I can start to work out in the evenings while I'm watching tv :) Came back to the house, relaxed, hung out. Then, my parent's dog snapped my necklace. I dunno if anyone here knows the significance of my necklace - But, I've worn it since the day Pat left for bootcamp. I haven't taken it off for any reason besides once to take a picture of it, and once to change to a stronger chain and twice to add a charm and a dog tag. I suppose I can get a new chain, just, once it broke, something inside of me snapped. I wanted my husband, I wanted him now. I wanted him to be sitting here beside me saying "Laurel, it's ok. Tomorrow we'll go get you a new chain. I'm right here, you're ok." But he can't be. He can't even say those words to me. I wrote him an email, but, when will he get it? A week, a month? When he can say "Everything will be ok," the time where I really needed it will have passed. I miss him so terribly much... I wish he was here tonight to hold me and make me feel not so hollow without him. He is a part of me, my husband, my love. Just when I think I'm getting into a pattern, everything is thrown out of whack. So, everyone, I suggest you prepare for the worst. Although, not much can prepare you for this. It's gonna happen, eventually. I'm so ready for tomorrow to end, so I can say 2 weeks down. Although right now, that seems so small. Lately, I've been feeling so good about it... But tonight, two weeks feels like a day. When realistically, it's about half a month. I'm praying for my husband tonight. If you're reading this and you pray, say a little something for my husband. I want to keep him safe and have him come home soon. I am praying for all the currently deployed service members and those who are here in our soils, defending us everyday but going to work and showing our military presense. So, to bed I go. Lets wake up to a new day.






Here's the necklace I was talking of. The "Faith" charm was the original charm, the wing charm was added in November, then since this picture has been taken, a dog tag has been added that my hubby made that reads "Laurel Dangrow, I will always love you. Take care during deployment. I'll miss you. Love, Patrick."