Hello, day 3! :)

I am gonna kick day 3 in the butt!! I woke up with a great attitude and tons of motivation. I woke up thinking, I am getting stronger. I know I am. I'm looking forward to the things I am gonna accomplish, I'm looking forward to the things I'm gonna do and change in this time apart from my husband. I keep thinking of all the wonderful blessings in my life, all the things I have, all the love I've had the pleasure of sharing with a wonderful man... And I realize, it doesn't come free. You gotta work to have a life that good, so here I am, giving my husband up for about 7+ months to show that we deserve to be together and have a life this good. I think 7 months is a small amount of time to give up for a lifetime of happiness together. And everyone, the best way to get through a deployment, hands down, is to have goals. Big goals. Not teeny tiny ones. Because right now my main goal is losing weight. I've always been one of those people who gets motivated then all the sudden gets un-motivated and doesn't do it. But this deployment is pushing me to do these things while I've got the opportunity. Call me crazy, but at the moment I don't feel like I have enough time to get as in shape as I want, although I'm sure I do. So it's time to get started, working hard, accomplishing everything I can possibly accomplish and making this time count. When he leaves usually, I just sit on the couch and watch TV or movies all day, sleep the other half of the day. But this is a precious amount of time that I have for ME. To those of you who are married, do you ever feel like you've left yourself behind somewhere? You get so caught up in the bills, the stress, everything - especially military members and family members, because you have the added worries of deployments, underways, long work nights, etc. I have this one opportunity, to find myself again and hold tight to it so when my husband comes back, he'll see the girl he fell in love with when she was 14. He'll see the bright personality that I once had, that was faded as time went on. He won't see a weak woman who sat infront of the TV or the computer. He'll see Laurel Anne. The girl he's loved for a long time and he'll be proud. He'll be proud of me, as I am proud of him. That's what I'm about to accomplish. I'm going to make my husband proud. And I'm going to make myself proud. For those of you dreading a deployment, in the middle of the deployment, who are lonely and not sure how to spend your time, find yourself again. Make yourself proud. Well ladies, I'll probably write again later, but for now Molly and I are going jogging. For the first time since, mmm, a long time lets just say. Hang in there everyone, the days are passing.