You know how I'm feelin today?? I'm feeling... Well, winded. You know when you're running a big race (Maybe you don't, so just imagine) and at the beginning, your lungs feel full of strength and your legs are just pumping... Then, BAM, you round the next corner and exhaustion starts to set in and your legs get heavy and your lungs start to burn a little bit. And you're thinking in your head "Shit, I just started running, the finish line is forever away. How the heck am I gonna do this?" Well, that's my mood this morning. I feel sorta discouraged today. First off, my body is so sore that I don't think I could run if I tried (Although, I will still go running here in a bit) and I just keep thinking, this deployment has just started, how am I gonna make it to the finish line? I know I will, but here comes the part of the race where things get a little tougher. So in the face of discouragement, I will push through. I will go jogging, I will clean my house (and babysit actually a little later on.) The day will pass, as the days previous to today have. My advice for everyone today is, push push push!! Just keep the momentum going and don't let this feeling bog you down. It's ok to miss your SO (Significant other) and sometimes it's even ok to cry or let yourself spend a day on the couch being miserable and watching sad movies. But not yet! It is way too soon! I've said this in a previous blog. Maybe after a month or so, I'll give in to a day like that. But not now. I've got too much going for me and too many goals I'd like to achieve. So, the weekend has begun. Once it passes, I can offically say my husband has been gone a week. The deployment fairy has not visited since she helped my kidney stone pain flare back up, which was Day 2. Also, something I must warn everyone of! (Of course, after I warn you, you'll probably do it) but I found something on the internet called "The donut of misery." I'm sure you could find it if you looked hard enough on Google. I downloaded it, thinking it would be helpful. I'm the sort of person who loves percentages, figures, numbers, countdowns until certain things take place. Well, I wanted to download the infamous pie chart that I've heard many military wives having. DON'T download it until you know your deployment is at least 25% over... Because this whole "2%" thing made me feel horrible. I scribbled out the specific details (OPSEC loves me) and I will post the donut of misery at the bottom of this blog - Just to show you how discouraging it is. Although, I don't mind the fact that it gathers how much family separation we've collected so far :p Well, starting my day now! So everyone keep your spirits up and keep pushing!
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